crashing hearts

have you ever

felt so much for someone that you

wished you couldn’t feel

at all but all you can do

is toss and turn in the night

because you can’t stop feeling

their touch you crave and the thirst

that aches in you as you

crash and burn with the fire

within you that melts you like

perishable gold that is almost like

sunlight solidified that remade you

that night you and he made love

underneath the grand divide

of the stars and sky that blessed

your love for each other and you

cried that night

so much that your skin melted

with his touch and you couldn’t

breathe anymore but without him

you couldn’t breathe anyway.

Have you ever

Met someone so oblivious to

Anything or anyone other than

Herself and her dreams and own desires

And she couldn’t and wouldn’t stop

Frustrating you so much that you

Bite the inner part of your mouth until

You bled iron and silver and you

Stand in there in the rain

Eyes full of hail and storm and

You shout it out at the world

Asking why is it like this

Why can’t it be like this

I want to shake and scratch her so much

And hurt her the way she hurt me and

All this pain inside me sequestered in me

I can’t breathe it’s shouldered deep inside me

And I’m crashing and burning to the point

Of oblivion and I can’t wait anymore but

All I can do is wait.